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"Woman who wants to be a man"

Published On : 2016-10-22
Posted by : Aney Rijal
Category : Experiences
Category : Adolescent Girls
Category : Health and Development
Category : Young People
Category : Menstruation
Category : Concurrent issues
Category : Gender and advocacy

My name is Karim. I loved to make friends. I worked in a grocery shop as an assistant. The grocery shop was 2 hours far from my resident.

It was summer at evening time. No sooner had I came out of shop to return back home than I met my old school friend whom I used to be close with. His name is Rashish and I was so amazed to meet him. He said, “Hey, how you doing? Where have you been these days? It’s being long time dude.” I nodded and replied that I was busy working and I asked if he is fine too. He affirmed my question. He asked me to join a birthday party of his girlfriend. It was already late to reach home but I was amazed to know the fact that Rashish had got his girlfriend so, I agreed to go.

We both went to a Dance party where everyone seemed like waiting for Rashish’s arrival. I also met my other school friends but couldn’t see Rashish’s girlfriend. I felt weird but I didn’t bother him to ask about her.

Rashish asked me to have some alcohol. I didn’t like the idea to drink first as I had never tried before but everyone were so mad at me. So, I tried it warning myself that I shouldn’t drink much. Then the alcohol hallucinated me so well that I lost my consciousness and started dancing with all of my friends. They threw me against gravity as if I were a sport champion. Everyone were chattering and laughing at me in indistinct sounds. I was totally unaware of what they were doing.

I was dancing like a maddest. At one time, I almost fell into the floor but one of the friends hold me near him that I even had smelled his bad breath. But I ignored everything as if I was extremely relieving. Suddenly someone carries me to the shoulder and took me to the room downstairs and threw me into the bed. Only I could see was a blurred vision. I heard everyone following me and that person to the same room. Then I felt like someone is trying to open my clothes. But immediately I thought it could be myself who were feeling overclothed in that warm temperature. I felt asleep thinking that I was relieved from those clothes.

In a very time, I woke up with the harsh headache with aggravatingly annoying situation. I was all naked surrounded by all boys around me. I felt harassing pain from my genitals. It was bleeding with wounds all around. I jump out of the bed with a rage and ran away protecting myself.

I was baited by my own friends. Now I could only blame to myself that I must have warred from boys, being biologically a girl. Only ambition I had was I wanted to change my gender but my own friend ruined my life. I changed my appearance to the girl again, when my parents used to call me Amisha 6 years ago and I could barely awake that ambition afterwards.

This is an imaginative story of a woman who wants to be a man.

This might not be the true one. Trans man might be suffering in different way. Some might even don’t figure out Trans men as there were initially a female. There might be people hiding their female genitals and have some ambition for getting there gender change but because of poverty and unaffordability, they could not change it. So, this might lead to some issues as believed there won’t be end of dreariness and there won’t be cent percent presence of goodness. Some might be insulted in their family and jobs because there have got female voice, female gestures and some might be even suffering like Karim in sexual violence. They are forced to live as a sex given to them by birth. This must be changed. Any people of any gender must be respected, must be made privileged of their needs. Social inclusion is essential and also important thing is there must be consentization of these issues and LGBTI issues mustn’t be made abnormal and source of vulgarity rather this must be made accepted to every people of the world making is as a global issue.


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